EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE I WILL STRUGGLE AND FIGHT AND STAND UP FOR YOUR LOVE BECAUSE YOU ARE EVERYTHING

Where are you now. Please tell me.
Why are you smiling, why, why don't you miss me.

I love you.
I'm so full of you.
And I'm so full of pain.

They tried to make me change my mind.
They told me you were mean.
They're all wrong. I know you're good. I know you're the best thing which ever happened to me, and which could have ever happened to anyone.
There's just so many things I need to tell you.
I miss your kitchen floor. I miss your voice. I miss your brain. I miss your hands. I miss your room, I miss mornings and I miss the time we were giving heads because we both just didn't know.

Please come back. We are soulmates.
I'll be pretty enough to make you feel proud. I'll wear Jeremy Scott dresses. And I'll read enough books to keep you awake for weeks.
You'll be impressed.
Every single day.
So impressed that you'll believe in god.
I'll wear your shirts, I'll take you to America. You'll be a star, I'll find a way.
I'll stop coke. I'll do more coke. You choose.

I'll be a dealer, I'll be prom queen, I'll be headgirl.
I won't cheat on you.
I won't change my mind if you start loving me.
I won't think you look stupid.
I promise.
There's so many things I've done already, and so many things I've suffered that I can take anything. I'm stronger now. You will never see me cry again.

I just need you in my life baby. I am so hollow.
Please.
I am begging you.

It's gonna last forever.